Oh Holy Night: The Holiday's Edition

I love the song "Oh Holy Night". Yes, I understand it is a Christmas song people. However, I love the x-mas flash mob version at the museum of fine arts in Boston, Massachusetts. It makes me cry every time I play it. I always get this feeling of peace and hope. Things I admire during Christmas time. I hope your Christmas was wonderful. I wonder would it be like to have Christmas in the summer like the people in Australia does? I need to experience that one year of my life. Anyway, My Christmas was a day of reflection, cleaning and prayer. I cleaned my house and re fixed the decorations since we had kids over a couple days before and since I was so exhausted from working like crazy and taking out braids. I was so tired that You Tube watched me fall asleep. It was the peaceful time I needed. I needed a day when someone didn't need my services every five min's. I felt good after a day of rest. My Christmas presents from my friends and boss didn't come until after Christmas. I didn't expect any presents since I knew I wasn't getting anything this year. I don't really care about presents but the fact that people think of me is an wonderful thing. What did I get... 4 new perfumes, 10 new lip glosses that came as an package, 2 new lotions (mini ones that comes with keys), 2 water bottles, and a flashlight. That came from my friend Krystal and her family. Now my boss gave me a shirt which was beautiful, Godiva chocolate, apples and oranges. I just found out that it's Belgium chocolate! What I love Belgium chocolate thanks to Elisabeth from college. Hopefully it will be wonderful. I will tell you if it's good or not. I have been given family and friends cards this year because I couldn't afford too much. I want to thank these people for thinking about me. I appreciate the love that you shown me. Peace and love!

Unfortunally, my host family have not seen their Christmas cards yet! It makes me sad. I was hoping that it would arrive early since it only takes four days to get to Europe! What's wrong with the postal service...you immigrants! I know I should not say that word in that way but please come on....you can't deliver a Christmas card on time? Really people? I hate slow services. I better learn to be patient...quick. hahahaha. I guess it's a little different in Spain then since there holidays don't end until January 6th. As for me getting on this flight that's something I will be working on tomorrow. I need to be able to tell my host mom something so they can figure this out. I have to talk to my landlord/lady tomorrow as well. Once I finish my last work day on Monday I'll celebrate then it will be countdown to 2014 and then 15 days to my first international flight ever!!! Got to go and figure out dinner. I'm hungry and knowing me I got to walk 20 mins for dinner. I better get used to walking everywhere. Peace and love everyone :)

My Hero: My Brother Eric

As the Christmas Holiday's come in and we celebrate our families being together. We also celebrate Jesus' Birthday. Some people don't celebrate his birthday but that's ok with me. As long as I celebrate his birthday in style I'm A-OK. That's why we are celebrating it on Christmas Eve with my church family.

For me, I get to celebrate his holiday alone due to my nieces and newfew's being away. All except one. Most of my family goes to see my brother in law's family. Since I have major issues with them I have learned to spend that time alone and drama free. I was supposed to spend this year with my friends family but couldn't do that sadly. I work the day after Christmas then I'm off again.

Also on this day I'll have to do the last ceremony of the year which is my brother's death anniversary. It's was actually around the 12th or during exam time but with my work schedule I couldn't so I'm doing on Christmas. I get to spend time with him and sing his favorite song which is Whitney Houston's "I'll always love you". He was the best brother I ever had. He loved me and was protective of me. I was his age when he died so it makes me sad. All I know is that he was sick and he just died. The only picture of him that I have is the one with me and him having fun. Who ever took that picture was crazy. So that's my weekend ahead. I'm so blessed and thankful for everything.
Happy Holiday's and Merry Christmas.

One Crazy Saturday: Let the holiday's begain...yay!!!

Hello World! I hope you guys are doing better today.At the moment I'm listening to "Better Today" by Neyo. I love Neyo's music so much. I first fell in love with his music as an 22 year old in college student and in love with one of my sweethearts. Wow I feel old. Today was crazy as I saw an early morning fight in all places McDonalds. It's too early to start an baby mama fight at 10:00am. Yo, I'm trying to eat my breakfast you stupid lady. I like to eat in peace not in war. I don't want to watch this go down either...thank you for waking me up though. I don't want spilled tea on my clothes. The bad part is that she spilled the tea on one of her daughters. Sadly, her three children watched this go down and got kicked out of their. Then she waited for her ex boyfriend to get out of McDonalds to start the fighting again. Lastly, called the police or popo (as they called it here) on her ex boyfriend. All of this hot mess just because you see your ex boyfriend with a new girl. This is too much for me. I got to talk to the new girlfriend on my way to work. She was so upset watching her boyfriend get rolled up on and being taken to jail right before Christmas. That's some ghetto mess that you only see on tv and brought into your front door on a Saturday morning. By the time I started to go to work and I only stayed for 30mins. Now you think I would be really upset by this. Really I'm not. I think that mistakes are made along the way. My phone is gone so I had no way of knowing that my boss was preventing me of coming so I took it as a lost but had an entertaining show this morning. Went to the mall, delivered some Christmas cards to my landlord and my family, I won't be home for most of the day on Christmas. I mostly spent Christmas' alone now. I will honor Jesus' birthday and deal with the final ceremony for the year...my brother's death anniversary.  Normally I do this before Christmas and I may do it on Monday to honor him. It's going to be too many children at my house and I'm tired of children and I'm ready for rest. I just didn't get a break at all this week so I'm so ready for a break and enjoy a little bit. I may or may not write anymore so Happy Holiday's to everybody and if you celebrate Christmas and I'll say Merry Christmas. Enjoy this time with your family and friends. Enjoy the life that you have. Be good and take care one another. Merry Christmas from NY Girl! :)

Celebrations, Rain and Youtube Night!!!

After two weeks of not really having food, sometimes not eating at all, crying my heart out and doubting my future I'm happy to say that this part of my hardship is over. Let's celebrate! "Can't hold us" by Macklemore and Ryan Lewis is starting my own club night, I'm not trying dressing in this rain...OH NO!!! Believe me, my celebration night will come because I'm willing to go crazy but I'll just do Club NYC. I can drink in my own house and pass out if I want without having to trying to get home...holla! I don't have to worry about drunk men but my crazy self will end up hurting myself anyway...lol. The joys of being me. Loving me is accepting me the way I am. As for the rain...I know we need you and all but can you please step to the left. I'm not down with you being here. However, I love the fact that you make the earth clean and beautiful so I need to not complain but enjoy the beauty of it. I need to learn how to just be in the moment in life. I hopefully will learn that in Spain. You Tube is my life outside of work now...lol. I'm done teaching art for the semester. I'm falling in love with You Tube. Since I don't have a boyfriend these days I have to fall in love with You tube. You tube is like the movies, playlist, history class and more. Yes, I know that You tube can't make my dinner or give me a bubble bath but it has given me more entertainment than anything else. That is why you don't see me in my living room that much. I just go in the kitchen to get the food for my room. That's really sad I know but I don't do too much of anything else. Well I am going back to my club night in my bed...hahahaha...loving the rest night in my own club.

"Forever in a dreamland means you never have to grow up or do you? " -me talking about dreams

Christmas Holidays...Almost for me

Tonight as I type this down it's almost Thursday morning so I have one more day. I got two busy weekends ahead and then it will be the Christmas holidays for me...yay. I'm ready for the kids to leave on break now. I love the kids but I'm ready to leave now. Sadly, I have not been able to really enjoy the holidays because of the work hours, the bus system and being sick. Being around children do allow yourself to get really sick at times. This weekend I will surprise my roommate this weekend with her gift from me which will be to put the Christmas decorations together. I'm so excited because I have been so blessed with everything that I have this year and want to show how much I appreciate her helping me so much this year. Since I won't be able to afford her an actual gift this will have to do. I have not been able to pay my rent since I got paid but had my paycheck put on hold. So I'm hoping I get two paychecks...yay. Now I can afford food again on Friday. I am hoping to also enjoy the little things for the holidays ahead like to go ice skating, and seeing the lights on Friday night. I hope to enjoy the new year celebrations as well.

Meanwhile I leave my job on December 30th 2013. Since I will be leaving on January 15th 2014....I plan on leaving for Spain. It will be 9 days before my 28th birthday.  I will have to leave on January 15th since I have to get my final paycheck before I leave the country. So I have to start telling everyone finally what's been going on with me. I hate goodbyes but I have to do this. I want to leave to start over and have an amazing life ahead. Got to go. It's late and I have not been sleeping lately because of HRT. I'll tell you about that on Friday night. Peace out world. :)

I'm sick...in bed on my day off

It sucks being sick and watching YouTube videos all day on and off. I'm even typing with one hand. I hope to be able eat actual food soon. I have not eaten since yesterday. I have been sleeping as well. However I'm a little sad because I won't be able to give in the annual z104 stuff the bus tonight. It's one of my favorite things to do on the holiday. I wish I was going to feel better but I rather not put myself in any danger. I need strength for tomorrow. I have to open up for work. I'm listening to Glee's version of "Oh Holy Night". It's one of my favorite Christmas song's. I love Glee's music. It's a cute show. Even though I don't really watch the t.v shows. I don't watch t.v these days. My computer as t.v shows. I even watch episodes on them but you do need to life outside of the computer.

 I'm excited about tomorrow since I'm going to have fun. I hope to be able to go my friends Christmas party tomorrow. With me losing my phone I have no way to get on my Facebook. I believe it's this weekend. I hope to be let off early. I got to go. I hate being sick.

My life is changing

Well, My world is changing every second. I will not have a job anymore after the 30th of December. I am terrified about the future knowing now I'm told that I won't be able to get a job here in Virginia. Yes, I made mistakes to where now I won't be able to get a job or not but I want more. I am not my mistakes and I'm not a failure. Yes, I have a Au pair position now in Spain. I'll be leaving between January 12th -15th. I'm glad this chapter of my life is ending because it was too much stress on my body. I knew that I wasn't going to be able to be a teacher so right now I need to find myself. I need to find out what I am going to do with my future. I'm blessed to still be alive today. I'm blessed to know that I'll have another opportunity is to change and grow. It's time to see what adventures I can get into now.  Knowing that change is coming is difficult but now knowing that you are not wanted makes me realized that it is time to go.
Love, Miss NY Girl

The Countdown Begains...6 Weeks away...Spain 2014!

As I ponder about life I realized I only have 6 weeks before my first international flight. Which means I only have that time to decorate the house for Christmas, New Years, wash clothes and get the money. Finally say goodbye to my friends and family. Saying Goodbye to my best friend is going to be so hard because she have always been only a phone call away. I also have to say goodbye to my friends since high school and my church family. Can I really say goodbye to everybody who loves me so much. My family doesn't know yet and will not know until it's time to go. I don't want to give a false warning like I did last time. I normally go to service on Sunday's but I took a break to answer my Skype thing. I talked to my host mom today. I got to see my room today, my home and everything. I even got to talk to little E and his sister was sleeping. He is one of the children who I will be watching. I'll be watching a little boy and a little girl. I'll be living in a house where I will have my own room with a bathroom in it. I never had a room like that.  I'm living with a swimming pool outside and inside...wow! I'll have an beautiful little home. We live near the mountains where we will go skiing. I am ready for the new experience now. I'm ready for more changes. I hope I will taste my last McDonalds, Subway, I hop and more. I'm going to miss this all. I'm really leaving...am I? I feel freedom...a New York girl finally is going to live a piece of my dream.