The Struggles of becoming an Au Pair

At times I sit on my bed and wonder if I am ever going to make it to become an Au pair. Life sometimes has it's funny way of showing you about yourself. I have given up on a lot of things in the past. I even gave up on finishing college. Anything worth anything will be hard and difficult. However the process of the second go around has been quite interesting to say the least. Other than that I have been really struggling with work these days. I'm really sad because I have not been really happy in a long time. I'm just ready for change. I don't know what's going on or know what to do at this point. Oh well. See ya later..